i HAVE TO DO THIS!!!

i have to forget about him...
it's driving me CRAZY!!! omg..
his dreamy eyes.. AHHH!!!! i know i don't have a chance with him..
so it's really wasting my time.. but i can't help it..
somehow something deep inside my heart i still think there's hope...
but at the same time something inside my heart tells me that it won't work out...
what am i supposed to do???
i couldn't sleep last night thinking about this..
wrote another song.. this is a pretty one.. i'm sure..
lol.. i stole some lyrics from high school musical though.. but still..
this is pretty good.. don't hv a title yet...
then this morning woke up early for sum reason... got a sms from him...
urgh!!! it's like i'm trying to forget about him and yet i always try to get closer to him..
what the heck is wrong with me???
anyway.. i went to low yat/sg wang today..
they couldn't fix my laptop so i'm really really sad.. =(
why??? if i wanna change the motherboard it's gonna be like.. 1K plus..
crazy!!!!
then came bk... do nothing.. slept for a while.. smsed for a while..
josh is leaving sunday.. anselm and adeline's leaving monday.. sad la..
i'm leaving next saturday!!! i don't wanna leave... *sigh*
then just now went for nasi lemak... yumyum...

*sigh* i'm still thinking about us.... why can't i just accept the fact that he doesn't like me and get on with life??? but..... he liked me.. last time.. so can that come back???
i'm secretly hoping that it will.... but i'll tell everyone now...
i think i'm in love with someone i rejected...
and that sucks!!! i really don't know what to do right now..
guess i'll have to leave it to God...