damn you!

i just HATE it SOOOO freaking much when people make me feel guilty. and then i hate them. and then i get really bitter inside and i wanna choke them until they die.

yea~~ exactly what i'm feeling right now.
and i'm gonna rant about it, no doubt.
yea. maybe i'm a little sensitive or what not, but that's how i am.

so... i was having lunch w/ kev and he's like
"i can't believe i didn't get kevinyen@gmail.com"
"Too bad. i bet i can get yunnielow@gmail.com"
"oh yea, too bad b/c i'm gonna get it and sell it to u for 100 dollars"
"whatever"

so i was over and i was on his computer and i made my freaking account. and then he grabbed my hands and like. "no, u can't"
and he said if i did i would have to go play ball w/ him and his friends later.
so i said okay.

man. and then right now i'm so freaking pissed.
yea.. maybe it's my fault. but i don't feel like playing ball under the hot sun. i'm tan enough already. and plus even if i go play i'm just gonna sit there and watch. per usual. i'm not good enough to play w/ them. BLAH! GRR@!!! so really, there's no point in me going.

if i stay home i have the fan and the computer and i can blog and rant about my sucky life!

so i told him that i didn't really wanna go and that i'll give him his 100 dollars. and then he's like...."oh, but ur going against what u say."
WHAT THE HECK? I DON"T WANNA PLAY!

yea.. guilt trip!

f*cking hate it!

yea i was really upset. but i'm sitll not going.. it's like...90 degrees outside, 3 o'clock in the afternoon in the summer time... NO WAY!!! and plus i hate putting on sunblock. i mean i HATE! i hate sunblock w/ all my life. the last time i put some on i think was like form 2 or something. so GROSS!!!

yea. so he's playing bball w/ his friends now and i'm at home. but i'm PISSED! but i wouldn't be happy even if i went. so whatever!