KL

KL..... I miss KL =)

so.. i arrived home thursday night. one of myflights got delayed one and a half hours. in the SFO airport.. there was like... chaos.. i was seriously freaking out....

moving on to more inportant stuff that's in my head for a long time.
anyway. so after that day hanging out with some of my friends. i felt like i hv this feelings toward him.. iono what it was. but it was something. i wasn't sure b/c there were so many other ppl around me. he's like my best friend.. that i can talk to and would stand up for me.. he's still the old him... deep inside. the person i loved. clkl sent me a msg. i was all... AHH>> he said i love you.. i was really happy and he was like.. OMG OMG... haahaaa.. he's a fun guy to be around... i wanted to call him in the airport, but i call clkl instead. iono why... probably b/c he said he was going to sleep.. didn't wanna disturb him . clkl was busy.. so i didn't call anyone..

i didn't know how much he meant to me until i was on that plane to s'pore. i slept almost the whole journey, but b4 i dozed off i thought about him so much that it made me feel uneasy. after that plane i thought about him.. and us.. once in a while... what if?? what if we didn't break off??? what if?? iono what will happen.. but i better put it to rest b/c i know that i won't hv a chance with him since he's so in love with his gf.. they msg like... 24/7.. *sigh*

so yesterday morning... he was online and we talked for a while... *the confession*.. OMG.. i almost cried.. i would hv if i was alone in my room. but my aunt and cousins were around.. so yea... i didn't know he felt the same way.. well. .at least i thought. the feelings like .... anyway... yea.. iono what to say. it made me more... headachy.... what ever that word means... i thought about him seriously the whole day yesterday.. and of coz today.. where is he??? why aren't you online??? damn! guess he won't be on today...

i called evern... of course.. =) and we talked.. but she had to go hv breakfast.. so i let her go...

i kinda think that it's not real..??? iono.. i mean.. he has a gf... and.. like... i'm like really really far away....... sigh.......

i;m using the wallet he gave me.. 2 years ago... there's something inside that i found.. and i don't think even he saw it.. "i want to be with you everyday"... i wish... it was true... but he has his life.. .and i hv a feeling that it's not gonna work out at all and i'll be in pain...

you can have your revenge i guess.. but for now, i love you!